Embracing New Beginnings: How South Korea Ignited a Fire in Me

So, the past few years of this life of mine have been challenging, interesting, crazy fun, crazy sad, totally messed up, great and well just life right. I keep starting my blog and then life is to compelling

or I'm so busy I feel like a crazy person trying to keep up and I fall short on caring for myself. This time is going to be different. It is time for a change, time for me to become the human I was meant or just want to be. I'm going to push myself, grow, learn, explore and reach for the stars. I used to be a lot of fun in my younger years, now I find myself falling into the serious and afraid category. Yuck, I am so tired of that. WTH! Life goes by so fast, honestly what the hell am I doing with myself.

I think it would be fun to document the changes I am making with myself. Share my story along the way, maybe heal some of that bullshit tucked away in my body and mind. Looking back 30+ years ago I would've never thought my life would be here. I had plans and goals things I wanted to do. Sometimes I feel like life wants to test you see how much bullshit you can take and hen back off when you start to crumble. I am honestly a blessed human but have been thru a lot and I have been holding back maybe because of some fear or lack of time. Last year my youngest was a senior and life was crazy busy with my two youngest girls. I loved every minute of it but now I can focus on things I put on the back burner. The whole empty nester thing pretty much made me into an insane person. Coming home to an empty house, the quiet was deafening. What the hell do I do with myself. My kids were my life, my everything, what the hell am I going to do now, focus on myself. Uhhhgggg!

Thankfully, I have a friend that asked me out to her place, out for dinner that evening and then encouraged me to go on her yoga retreat. I am not the most financially abundant person on the planet and taking 10 days off work and paying for a trip seemed out of my league at the time. She said I could make monthly payments to pay it off. Well shit I was sold on that. How in the hell could I pass that up. I put that airline ticket on a credit card, best idea ever, and my adventure into international travel began. There were a few moments where I was like what the hell did you just do. Good Lord MaeLe, no. I just pushed those negative thoughts to the back of mind and plunged forward.

This trip lit a fire inside of me, that I will carry forever. Thinking at one time that this experience wasn't something I could ever achieve. I learned nothing is out of my league just some ridiculous mindset we put on ourselves. I was surrounded by an incredible group of people and a beautiful county. Being around a different culture and seeing how they live was so fascinating to me. Waking up in Seoul and hearing the traffic below, feeling the energy of the city made me almost jump out of bed with excitement, emphasize almost. ;) The energy was completely intoxicating. I have now become a travel enthusiast and want to go almost everywhere see and experience different cultures and meet new fabulous humans.

This is a new start, a new adventure, a new beginning. I thought about deleting the previous blogs feeling like they messed with the flow and realized they are part of the journey that got me to where I am now. That was me trying and this will be me succeeding. I hope to inspire, entertain and encourage love and growth of self-thru this blog. My journey began with these two absolutely beautiful women. Join me on this epic adventure, join the fun. Love and blessings!! ;)